Oak Park, IL never seemed any more peaceful than now, thanks to my lovely friend Maria for leaving her whole apartment for my one day stay in Chicago before my flight at 5:35pm today.
As I'm typing this, my heart is pounding hard. And that weird feeling in the stomach. This is extremely weird to think that I'm feeling nervous about traveling. But I am nervous. I don't know, have you ever had a dream or goal that you've been dying to make into reality and bam, it's happening in a few hours? Because that's me right now! (I guess I'm a little too obsessed with Europe and France in particular but ohhh wellllll we all know that.)
Anyway, these next 4 months will be a life changing experience for me and I know it. Just yesterday I've realized how much I've moved around since age 14: Vietnam, Singapore, Cincinnati, Hawaii, Chicago, Boston and now Paris. Is it tiring to move every 4 months? Hell yes it is -- I basically live out of my suitcase now. Had a quick conversation with one of my advisors and was told that my peers would die to settle down and get a stable job where they are right now. Maybe that's not for me. At one point in my life I would love to just, you know, settle down, find a loving boyfriend, have a permanent job (that I hopefully will love), and all that getting-comfortable-where-I-am-at good stuff. Maybe. Just not right now.
It's not that I don't love being where I am and who I am now; I just don't know if I have found the right moment, the right place and the right me yet, as profound as that might have sounded. I want to see more and travel more, just because it is undoubtedly wonderful being out there and being all kinds of uncomfortable (not able to speak the language, not able to figure out the orientations of the streets,...) I want to be able to think back about those times that I was out there in the world and doing things that was uniquely me. My story, my life, my growth and my dreams that are coming to reality. I want to have a life that, at some point, I was challenged to do something that was outside of my comfort zone.
Also, right now, I guess I'm too selfish to commit to anything, a person or a place. I'm also greedy because I want to see everything and meet everyone from everywhere :D
That said, I CANNOT wait to live in France and explore Europe on my own for the next 4 months. Who knows what sort of crazy situations will come my way, but I'm ready to take them all in. I know I will make mistakes and that's alright. I will also learn a bunch and hopefully Europe will help guide me to figure out what I'm doing next in life. Thank you all who have supported me with my journey so far! Please know that I appreciate each and everyone of you. Please, keep in touch, skype/viber/whatsapp/facebook me whenever. I will try my best to update my life in Europe with blog posts, drawings, photographs here.
See you soon, Europe, and see you again in 5 months, America :)
Like a bird, let me fly.
As I'm typing this, my heart is pounding hard. And that weird feeling in the stomach. This is extremely weird to think that I'm feeling nervous about traveling. But I am nervous. I don't know, have you ever had a dream or goal that you've been dying to make into reality and bam, it's happening in a few hours? Because that's me right now! (I guess I'm a little too obsessed with Europe and France in particular but ohhh wellllll we all know that.)
Anyway, these next 4 months will be a life changing experience for me and I know it. Just yesterday I've realized how much I've moved around since age 14: Vietnam, Singapore, Cincinnati, Hawaii, Chicago, Boston and now Paris. Is it tiring to move every 4 months? Hell yes it is -- I basically live out of my suitcase now. Had a quick conversation with one of my advisors and was told that my peers would die to settle down and get a stable job where they are right now. Maybe that's not for me. At one point in my life I would love to just, you know, settle down, find a loving boyfriend, have a permanent job (that I hopefully will love), and all that getting-comfortable-where-I-am-at good stuff. Maybe. Just not right now.
It's not that I don't love being where I am and who I am now; I just don't know if I have found the right moment, the right place and the right me yet, as profound as that might have sounded. I want to see more and travel more, just because it is undoubtedly wonderful being out there and being all kinds of uncomfortable (not able to speak the language, not able to figure out the orientations of the streets,...) I want to be able to think back about those times that I was out there in the world and doing things that was uniquely me. My story, my life, my growth and my dreams that are coming to reality. I want to have a life that, at some point, I was challenged to do something that was outside of my comfort zone.
Also, right now, I guess I'm too selfish to commit to anything, a person or a place. I'm also greedy because I want to see everything and meet everyone from everywhere :D
That said, I CANNOT wait to live in France and explore Europe on my own for the next 4 months. Who knows what sort of crazy situations will come my way, but I'm ready to take them all in. I know I will make mistakes and that's alright. I will also learn a bunch and hopefully Europe will help guide me to figure out what I'm doing next in life. Thank you all who have supported me with my journey so far! Please know that I appreciate each and everyone of you. Please, keep in touch, skype/viber/whatsapp/facebook me whenever. I will try my best to update my life in Europe with blog posts, drawings, photographs here.
See you soon, Europe, and see you again in 5 months, America :)
Like a bird, let me fly.